Thursday, October 23, 2008

Memory Card

When Noah was first diagnosed, we distributed prayer cards with his adorable face to remind people to pray for healing and to share his story. An image of this prayer card eventually found its way on to the side bar of my blog and many others. I can't tell you how much it meant to me to visit the blogs of friends and strangers and find Noah's goofy little smile gracing those sites.
Jodie Allen designed those amazing prayer cards and has repeated her kindness to me by designing a memory card now that Noah is gone.  We both wanted a card that captured Noah's spirit and life... something that was joyful and not sad.  I think we were successful.  

So, my friends in the blog-o-sphere... if you would like to replace the prayer card button on your blogs with this memory card, please feel welcome to do so.  It eases the ache in my heart a little to know that others will help me preserve the memory of our sweet little boy.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Missing Noah in pictures...part 9

Doesn't he just make your heart melt?  
Noah lost the ability to smile in the last few months of his life, so each picture I have of him grinning has a special place in my heart.  
I miss him more today than yesterday.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

As some of you know, we had a photographer come and take pictures of our family on the day we took Noah off of the ventilator.  This service was provided free of charge through an organization called Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep and an amazing photographer named Monica Carroll.

This organization matches families experiencing the loss or anticipated loss of an unborn or newborn child with a professional photographer. The photographs are a great source of comfort and healing for the families in the weeks and months following their overwhelming loss.

NILMDTS is having their annual fund drive.... please read the information below if you are interested in making a donation.

With the Month of October being recognized as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, The Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Foundation holds its Annual Fund Drive for six weeks starting in mid-September and ending in October. It is our hope that those in a place to make even a small contribution to NILMDTS will consider doing so allowing the organization to provide adequate resources, training, communication and tools necessary in support our amazing contingent of professional photographers who provide the gift of free remembrance portraiture to families in need.

Your donations help the organization in many ways -
  • By supporting the continued education of our volunteer photographers
  • By allowing us to further our outreach to hospitals and hospices across the world
  • By offsetting the costs associated with outreach efforts including Formal NILMDTS Training Seminars
  • By supporting the Family Forum which creates a productive and supportive haven for healing
  • By supporting the Photographers' Forum which provides a helpful environment for our member photographers to express their feelings and receive advice on the various issues that they face in this noble work
  • By supporting the day to day operations of our Headquarters Offices

Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep is recognized as an IRS 501(c)3 charitable organization (Tax ID#77-0656322) and your donations are always entirely tax deductible. When you donate, you will receive a thank you card that serves as your receipt as well as an enclosed card you may to send to the family of whomever you made the donation in memory of.

With an average of 2-million hits per month on our web site, imagine if everyone contributed just $5 to the organization!

Your donation truly will make a significant difference in the continued success of NILMDTS.

There are several ways that you can donate to NILMDTS today.

The first and easiest is to donate through our secure website by clicking here. NILMDTS is run 100% on donations and we truly could not provide the support necessary to our photographer volunteers without the kind generosity of donors like you.

You can also pledge your support through, an online shopping portal where a portion of all supported purchases you make online are automatically donated to NILMDTS.
Click here for more information and to register!

You may also send a check to our mailing address:

NILMDTS Annual Fund Drive
7800 S. Elati St. #111
Littleton, CO 80120

Monday, October 6, 2008


Sleep has become increasingly hard for me since we lost Noah.

Once I fall asleep, I am usually okay... but falling asleep is the challenge.  My brain simply won't turn off.

My thoughts inevitably turn to Noah and that usually brings on waves of sadness that don't help matters much.  

Tonight, my sleeping issues are compounded by a nasty cold that snuck up on me yesterday.  So, now I sit in the living room at 2am, battling an alternating runny then stuffed nose as well as the aching of my heart. 


The Lauer Family