Friday, August 29, 2008

At a loss for words...

I used to walk around composing blog posts in my head.

Without conscious effort, my brain would begin to craft a post outlining whatever adventures Noah and I had that day... and I would often take pictures with the express purpose of sharing it with the blog world.

But my muse is gone. And I miss him terribly.


17 comments:

shainapearce.com said...

I'm so sorry for this tremendous loss. I'm at a loss for words other than those too.
Shaina

Ron said...

Grief hurts. You have to let it. The only way through ... is through.

And I really hate that for both of you.

Christine said...

The missing is so very painful! I am so sorry. Your friend Ron is right - the only way through is through. Keep writing. We will keep listening, loving and praying. You will feel joy again. Believe it.

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry Deb. You guys have been in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

Anonymous said...

Deb,
I stumbled across your blog in the midst of Noah's hospitalization. I was immediately drawn into your world and Noah's story. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you. I am a mother to a 9 month old Noah. Nothing I can say will take away your pain, but know that Noah's story touched people all over the world. I am praying for you and your family.

Jodie Allen said...

oh deb, I do the same thing... and as much as i complain i can't imagine what it would be like to lose my muses...

thinking about you today...

Chris said...

me too. Grammy

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and Josh. I can't imagine the depth and breadth of the hole in your hearts. I'm thankful you are in a place where you feel the love and support of others. Linda

The Locke Family said...

Oh Deb, I can't even imagine. I'm so sorry. We're praying...

Jen said...

Well, I miss you and Noah and your adventures too. And he's so darn cute. Maybe you can go back thru your photos and post them and tell little stories while they are fresh in your mind. Or you can just wait until the mood strikes you, and write whatever is on your mind, even if it is just your grocery list. Or you can be silent for as long as you want. We all love you and are praying for comfort for you.

erin said...

Hi Deb,

I'm so sorry you are missing your muse. You are so brave. Love you.

Anonymous said...

your faith love and courage through all of your experiences are an amazing inspiration to me. I could not even imagine having to go through what you have just gone through in the past year. My heart hurts for you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

Deb...I'm so sorry...I cannot imagine...I'm praying and believing Ps 34:18.
Kristen

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry :-(

Anonymous said...

There are so many moments in the day when thoughts of you and Josh and Noah run through my mind and the one thing that keeps coming back is God's grace is in this somewhere. My heart hurts too..... Love, Nancy

Kim said...

I'm so very sorry. I agree with the other posters. Keep writing when you feel moved to do so, and we'll keep listening. I can't imagine the depths of your grief.

Ok, Where Was I? said...

I am so, so sorry. That is a beautiful video and has me in tears. How fortunate he was to have you both as his parents to give him all that love. Sarah

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